Thanks to everyone for their kind comments.
Here's an update.
My eye ?
Operation is a success, and I'm learning to cope with deliberately using a low powered left eye contact lens, so I can read with the left and see distance with the right. Brain is adapting.
My hand ?
I was getting bad pain in a new grip problem, in the 5th finger of my right hand, to the extent that I couldn't even push on that side to sit up straighter in bed... coffee cup gripping with it was a no no, and even signing Birthday cards became hit and miss... they said that the tendon and sheath were inflamed and gave me a steroid injection. That's about the fourth joint I've had that in now, and I can tell you that it's the most painful thing they've ever done to me, but it seems to have calmed things down... I can at least hold my coffee... but I'm not sure if the underlying general failure of my hands comes from riding, and that raises doubts...
Walking ?
My left foot is now rarely painful, and I have my 'final' consultant's appointment in a week or two.. I can walk a bit more now, but the limitation comes from my right hip. I'm trying to trigger an adaptation to allow me to walk a bit more easily, but only a few of my walking muscles are still actually connected to the bones of the leg.
In the original accident the tendons attaching muscle to bone were torn out complete with pieces of the Trochanter still attached, (avulsion fracturing is the word... )
avulsion The tearing away of an attached or anchored tissue, as in the avulsion of a muscle from its insertion in bone—e.g., an avulsion fracture in which bone remains attached to the inserted muscle, but loses its attachment to surrounding bone.
The majority of those tendons and muscles originally connected to the Greater Trochanter (the mini 'handle' that we all have sticking out sideways at the top of our femurs) are either now just attached to scar tissue wrapped around loose pieces of the bone, or have withered away from complete disuse. Essentially there were far too many to try to refix.... a sort of 3D jigsaw that the docs had no possibility of repairing.
So when I try to bear weight on my right leg, while the left leg swings forward off the ground, only a few muscles are doing the work, and those are also not attached to the main point they should be, and this is not as efficient from a mechanical viewpoint.
So those inefficient and understaffed muscles allow me to walk, but they are working at near maximum power just standing still, so they become overtired quickly, and that's when the pain starts... it's not something I can train away, and I bet those few muscles are probably my strongest, but with the least endurance...
Riding ?
I still haven't ridden and I don't even know how long it's been. Certainly over six months....
All my bikes have flat tires, and I've forgotten all my maintenance skills.. that's the brain injury in action.... literally I'm scared to start anything because I'm not sure what to do... when I was riding every day I had it all under control, but it's gone now, and I'd be starting again...
Bikes are in the garage, and the tools are spread around in various cupboards and drawers, but I'm not sure where anything actually is.... I'm terrified of the forgotten unknown....
Oliver has offered to get my bikes ready for the road, and maybe I can get one on one of my turbos, to build a little endurance and get my legs working again... walking muscles, as I described above, aren't much used in riding, which meant that I was less of a freak, and that's probably why I did so much...
Brain ? Mental health ?
I made a decision to stop depression medication months ago, but can't remember when... my memory fails more now though, I think.... certainly there are days I just stay in bed, but I'm not getting the endorphins from riding, and it's still winter (ish). I do crossword puzzles most days to try to keep up my word repertoire, but I get stuck looking for conversational words, seemingly at random... I guess I'm happy as I am, living in the now...
Right now, I'm not a cyclist...