I was feeling sorry for myself yesterday - 4 very long days, two of which working for another studio for a lot less than I'd like to be earning.
I've picked up a significant new client whom I'm shooting all day for today and quite honestly, it's the first time I'm earning real money for what's looking to be promising regular commercial photography, on my own.
I was getting a bit narked at coming down with a cold ahead of today's vital shoot. But a coughing fit whilst climbing the stairs yesterday at the studio and I smashed my big toe into one of the steps falling up their stair way.
It hurt so much I felt nauseous for a while and I had to sit down in the studio, I couldn't bear being on my feet. Not for the pain itself, but more for how dizzy I felt afterwards.
After a few minutes I was hobbling about. Very painful driving the hire car home each time I depressed the clutch and I've got a very special walk. (Amazing how much you use your big toe!)
It's giving me constant grief. But it's not really very swollen. On a pain scale it's about a 5 (10 being Kidney stones) and rises to a 7, occasionally an 8 when walking on it.
Toe looks and feels fine to touch - in terms of being the right shape, just very very tender one I push down on the top of it, an inch back from the very front and the same again an but less intense on the underside..
Am I nuts to consider doing this shoot today or should I just man up and get on with it? I'm thinking the latter. Brave face and let the adrenaline take over.
What do you think?